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When we talk and think about jealousy, we immediately think of relationships. We are very jealous of a relative, a sibling, a boyfriend, a husband, and even pets. It’s the first thing that comes to mind. I’m not very jealous, actually. I’m a Taurus, and if you believe in astrological signs and all that, you know that Tauruses are often labeled as very jealous, but I defy that stereotype in most cases.
BUUUUUT... the conversation changes quickly when it comes to certain things that are mine. I’m very protective of a range of material things. I’m jealous of my books, my laptop, my phone, and even more so, my tools!
I am obsessed with all kinds of tools! I like to sit and think for a long time planning things, and then, start to actually do them. So, over time, I bought my own tools, like saws, screwdrivers, drills, bits, about a dozen screwdrivers, Phillips and wrenches of all imaginable sizes and shapes, screws, and all the other things you can imagine. And I take care of everything with great zeal and consideration. Being things that are of great value to me, I am very reluctant to lend them.
When I see someone handling my tools, it’s almost like physical pain, as if part of me were being shared and eventually used. It’s not a matter of how much they cost - at least, not just a matter of how much they cost - but of how much they mean to me. There’s a story in each one, a project it helped me complete. If I have been a bit selfish in the past, that’s why!
I think about the history of all the work I’ve done with the help of my tools. The wear marks on each one of them are a story in themselves. Each piece of furniture I created, every part of my house I decorated. I make sure they are always in order, clean, and ready for the next task in perfect condition. I get stressed and angry when people carelessly abuse my tools.
I also take very good care of my tools. I always lubricate, sharpen, and store them properly. Each has its own box, everything is very organized. And I have a specific cabinet for them. It’s not about the material cost, it’s about the time it took. I wouldn’t like to think that the person borrowing (when the miracle of lending happens) wouldn’t treat them the same way.
I also had bad experiences lending tools. Some came back dirty or damaged, and others weren’t even returned. This only sharpened my jealousy and reluctance to share. I find it safer to guide people on how to use the tools instead of lending them because I’m sure my tools are being used the right way and that my precious treasures are in good hands.
It may sound a bit dramatic to some people, but for me, taking care of my tools is really about preserving something I have a very personal love for. They are an extension of my power and creativity, and the jealousy I feel is actually a reflection of the love and respect I have for them and for thinking that most of my things I made myself.
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