Good day family, most of the times when l'm alone deeply in my thoughts l always ask myself this question "why do l isolate myself from people most of the time". But l always don't seem to get any answers, because for a while l might be social with everybody and the next minute, l will be on my own without contributing to the conversation again.
So this thoughts went on for so long until l figured out the reason why l always isolate myself from people. This problem was due to a betrayal in my past very long ago and it turns out l haven't moved on from it and still scared that if l start letting some kinds of people into my life again l will get hurt. For me betrayal is not only when a friend tells other people your secret, rather betrayal is also a deliberate disloyalty, destroying someone's trust possibly by lying. Most of us one way or the other has suffered betrayal from a friend which is really hurtful that no matter how hard we forget, this memories and scars of being hurt in the past still comes back. I would like to share one of my experience on betrayal.
Earlier this year when l went to the market, l made a new friend with a girl, l didn't know her but when l saw her she was looking for someone to help her carry the things she bought to her car but everybody just kept ignoring her, without she asking me l went there and assisted her to the car, she thanked me and collected my number that she would love to be my friend l was happy too because she was so very nice and even offered me a ride home. So that was how we started talking, until l located her house and we started visiting each other on our free time. This went on for so long until one day she called me that her boyfriend will be having a birthday party at his house and she is inviting me to come over and celebrate with them. I didn't want to agree at first due to the fact of how my parents has warned me never to attend birthday parties of people l don't really know that well, yet l ignored my parents advice and agreed to come because l didn't want to upset her, because already l take her as my sister. So l asked her the time of the birthday she said it was 9pm and l shouted because l can't leave my house to a place in that hour of the night l'm still a young girl growing up not fully an adult to take responsibility for myself so l declined because l wasn't pleased with the time, she kept on begging and disturbing me to come after much persuasion l agreed and prepared for the party the next day. In the evening by 8:30 she drove to my house and picked me up we greeted then admired each others outfits as we were set for the birthday.
Finally we arrived at her boyfriend's house everybody was present in time for the birthday to begin, they were cool music everywhere people dancing, food and drinks going on everybody was happy until suddenly my friend came offering me alcohol and l told her l don't drink alcohol, she kept on pressuring me to try it that its really nice meanwhile the waitress serving the drinks was giving me eye contact not to drink but l ignored and drank it all, a few minutes later l started feeling dizzy, loosing my strength getting more weaker at this time the party was still going on.
Immediately l fell down on the floor that was when this waitress came trying to lift me from the floor but she couldn't because of my weight so she called her assistant and together they lifted me up running from the birthday party without anyone observing what was going on. They took me outside then the other waitress that assisted went inside back so the girl and her boyfriend won't suspect anything, this other waitress stopped a bike immediately and took me to her house then went back to complete her job at the birthday. And that was how l slept till the next morning, regaining myself as soon as l woke up l shouted where am l, l was getting scared until l looked at the girl and remembered she was the waitress l met at the birthday party the previous day, so l asked her how come l ended up in my house because the only thing l could remember was my friend giving me drink and the next thing l felt was dizziness, that was when she laughed and told me everything that happened that day, how the girl that was supposed to be my friend arranged with her male friends to take advantage of me at the party, they were talking about the plan that was when the waitress heard them and tried to stop me but l didn't listen.
Immediately tears rolled from my eyes because the person that did this to me was supposed to be my friend not just my friend a person l took as a sister, l thank the girl for saving me and she escorted me home, in the evening this girl drove to my house again pretending again, that she has been looking for me since why did l just disappear from the birthday like that, l didn't even let her finish before telling her what she did and warned her that l don't want to see her in my compound ever again because if l do l will arrest her, she kept on pleading but it was already too late all trust has been lost.
In life we get betrayed by people most especially the ones we love the most, but every experiences happening to us be it good or bad serves as a great lesson for us to live on.
I really appreciate your time and effort for reading my post and l will be sharing more stories to tell @rukyig blog.
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