As if I was nothing

On one of the Arabic channels,
You can imagine that a 39-year-old single person is brought and poor to a degree that a person cannot imagine, and they delude him with a beautiful wife who has a house and money, and in fact this wife comes, I do not know how she accepted this role... and sits in front of him, and makes him believe that she likes him and makes people laugh with him, and imagine the poor person rejoicing from the bottom of his heart because of his need to... He himself did not reach her, then they say (hidden camera). Imagine his reaction.
Did you know why Dostoyevsky once wrote: In their eyes, I am worth less than a mat. That is what exhausts me and weighs me down. It is not the difficulties of money that kill me, but rather these humiliations, these whispers, and these sarcastic smiles that kill me. I have become ashamed to live. I have fallen to the lowest point that a vagabond descends to. Without a passport