If I was told today would bring in something unexpected like this, I would have rolled my eyes the moment I woke up to see the morning sun. But as it is, life is just like that with its magic, and all you have to do is follow suit.
It all started with a call. What was asked was unexpected because I was saving towards something, but I just could not say No to the caller. She means that much to me, and just when I said, Fvckit! Let's go with the transaction, network, and bank decided that they weren't having the same discussion with me.
I have never been stressed by making transactions in my life, and today came with a bed and pillow concerning this. It pained me because I needed to send the money as quickly as I could, but nothing good happened. I was met with an unreasonable amount of suffocation that makes me hold my head in pain. And it didn't end.
Thinking about this, I knew who I had to pass all the blame to. I won't forgive them! I said in my head. These people always get to you even when you try to live as peacefully as you can. Yes, you know them as much as I do... The Corrupt Individuals Called Governments.
They are always at it. The recent news on their attack on Binance is still fresh in my heart and makes it burdensome and just as I am about to tell myself they don't deserve to get me riled up like this, another show was brought to my doorstep. I couldn't even come online as the network kept messing up, and the little act of kindness I had towards them was dangling on a thin thread, and it bothered me.
However, when I realized how I started today, I knew deeply that I didn't need their drama in my life. So, I took a deep sigh and rested. The truth is that the country is messed up to an extent that you can't even blame anyone again. When these government officials leave their seat, another will come, and we will complain again and again because they'll always do things to make us bitter. But, not today! The fact that I have found myself in a country like this always makes me bitter, and in doing that, I am inflicting pain on myself and to those around me who feel the same.
And that's where forgiveness comes in. Forgiving myself because it wasn't my fault and standing up to make use of what I've got here. Truly, this country isn't the best. Still, it isn't the worst out there. Everyone has their pain, but when forgiveness sets in, it heals us from within.
There's a Kdrama I am watching now, and there's a song in it that speaks so much of our lives. It's a sad yet uplifting song, and ever since I have heard it, it gives me more reason to forgive and truly live.
The truth is that the more you allow hate in, the more the pain gets, and the more it becomes hard for you to truly live or breathe. It is suffocating, which is why forgiveness is paramount and with that, the act of kindness will overflow from you to others because healing has taken place.
When we forgive ourselves and others, we get to see that things aren't as difficult as they seem because the presence of anger is absent. And that's the same thing I did today. I had to let go of the pain that was moving slowly like a disease. I stopped the flow and joined #pypt for sometime even when everyone's voice was robotic 😂, I stayed. After that, the Network gracefully allowed me to do Duolingo, of which I was leading by some little gap.
The transaction that has got my face scrunched up finally went through, and it brought in more joy to my heart. Also, a close friend was with me, and he is a big fun bully who added more fun to my day. We played water splashing on ourselves, and now, everywhere is filled with water 🤣almost a nice swim pool to bathe in now. I chased him out!
Finally, I was able to come online and have my post written and very soon to be published with a larger smile.
Journal
Friday came with its beauty, which gladdened my heart because it was a day set aside for treasure hunt on dreemport. I was super happy for that day and shared my WiFi with someone who wouldn't stop poking me 🤣🤣. Yeah, it was an act of kindness because I was happy that I was able to do that.
On Saturday, which was the weekend, got me busy, but I took time to myself because my health matters the most. I have been feeling tired lately, so I didn't let my Work-alcoholic style get to me.
Sunday was a match day for me, and I did have fun screaming my lungs out at the player like others and said the golden words to people when I could have just walked out.
I started Monday on a lighter note with a call to my sister. We had a lengthy talk, and I listened to her worries. At the end of the call, she was relieved, and so was I.
Tuesday came with its super tunes, and I shared a sweet tune with other Hiveans that may have come across it, and I am sure both my text and song chosen made someone happy.
The next day, which was Wednesday, started with a movie. I also had a discussion with a friend regarding the movie, and he was happy to share his thoughts. History is something he likes to talk about, and sharing that with him and asking for his insight regarding it was a beautiful moment for him.
Today, which is Thursday, started well until some unforeseen circumstances took place. However, I was able to make some people's day by sending something nice to them even when they didn't expect it. Though the day started well, the middle got messed up, but the rest was sweeter than honey.
Still yours truly,
Balikis.
Thanks for reading and listening.
Peace be unto those who crave it and more to those who chase it away.