When we spoke on the phone today, you there and me over here, I felt so happy; you made me laugh as always, the way you put a smile on my face so easily used to confuse me until I simply gave into it and accepted that you brought me true joy and happiness. I knew you were hiding something today but didn't pry knowing you'd tell me if you wanted to...you did. Your work is so complex, you're busy and, knowing you as I do, I know you give one hundred percent no matter what and it costs you emotionally and physically. I was sad to hear about your day, the toll it's taken on you, but happy that it was me you told about it, I'm happy that I'm your person.
When we said goodbye I was left with residual thoughts as always and I thought about how much you'd changed since I met you.
I remember who you were when I first saw you, you attracted me and I didn't know why, and I remember how badly I wanted to peel back the layers and know more; know everything. I remember how, as we unfolded and I reached deeper into you, I fell in love and it's a beautiful memory which I treasure; the memory of when I admitted to myself I loved you and the process of falling in love.
It's been a long journey, a very enjoyable journey, but also difficult at times, we've lived a lot of life together, been through many things...and so much has changed.
Today as I went on with my day knowing you were somewhere doing the same, away working, I thought about how you've changed, how I have too and how we have changed together. It's been lovely, the change, the experiences and process that caused it, and yet something is the same, *something's always the same; I love you still and miss you more than I imagine you could imagine.