This search for constant improvement produces dissatisfaction, frustration, anxiety... How scary is it to make a mistake, right? Will it be that one day I will stop caring if I do well or not? Is there really such a thing as doing it wrong?
It's amazing the amount of times I've asked myself this, and the amount of times it's stopped me from moving forward on my projects... It's as if every time I'm taking a step, this thought comes to me that tells me: “In the end you're going to end up making a mistake, and it's going to go wrong.”
Not everyone talks about it, but sometimes your rock in the shoe is yourself, you with your thoughts... What does it matter if it's scary? What does it matter if it goes wrong? At least you can say that you tried, that you could have broken down along the way, but you stuck your pieces together and created a masterpiece. That things sometimes go wrong does not mean that they are not right, in the end it depends on you, that I am in openness to receive.
Sometimes it's easy to get back in the flow, and be true to me…
This is the power, in choosing to connect with my love, with gratitude and forgiveness. Being kind to yourself. I haven't talked much about this, but for a long time my mind was a boxing ring and my internal dialogue was a constant duality.
Because of how I looked physically, because of my fears and insecurities, for not being perfect or enough. For looking fat or very skinny, or not having a beautiful and dermatitis-free skin.
I chose to take a different path because I understood that when that dialogue changed to BE unity for me, my heart breathed peace.
Formula for this: body +mind +spirit +soul and heart in balance.
How? With different actions, recognizing my body for allowing me to get here, treating me with love.
It hasn't been easy for me, but it's been totally liberating, because it's creating your love bubble and not letting anything break it, not even yourself. But on this journey of forgiveness, being one with my body has led me to see the wonders I achieve when I am one with myself. And not getting lost in distractions that take me away from what really matters to me, with the strength I have to not give up.
Don't let them tell me again: you repeat it because your grandfather did it that way. Noooo..., if you learn more about your childhood and your learning, you will have more work, but it will be more real than the other formula, Grandfather's, he did it like that.
Personal evolution is not about replacing who we are, but about developing our awareness and capacity for action. Each of us has the power to shape our own path.
You are not responsible for how the world around you acts, but you are responsible for how you choose to feel about the world and yourself.
Each person comes to teach you something, therefore, allow yourself to look inward and see that you can learn and transform from yourself thanks to the other.
More than you can handle. I don't expect the easiest...
Janitze.
Separator made with Canva by @janitzearratia
Any images in this post are taken with my iPhone 12, the Infinix pro-note 30 or with the camera eighties Rolleiflex 2.8 f, and edited with Canva
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