It’s difficult for me to accept that my grandma in Canada passed away this Sunday while my sister was on the way trying to rush to say good bye to her. She was so upset she couldn’t make it to seeing her before she goes.
She’s able to flight there to attend her funeral anyway! To me, it’s even worse as my mom trying to stop both me and my sister go to Canada as she just took a hip surgery back in early Jan this year.
Okay, this is not the main reason that she tries to stop both of us going to Canada but the personal beef with my dad’s side family!
I grown up in the single family, my mom had a very difficult time to rise us up, I knew that. Just can’t understand why she would force the next generation to “inherit” the hate and beef from her?
After having discussion with my sister, she said I don’t have to attend my grandma’s funeral in Canada, it is hard to make such decision as I personally want to say good bye to her! But I still have to think about my mom and my job!
We can’t do too much to my grandma already, we better focus on what we still got on hand rather than just thinking what we have lost, right? We can’t take grandma life back, but we still have my mom, my sister, etc…
Understand that I do treat my family very nice sometimes, it’s time to learn and change, trying to be nicer to them, probably this is the last lesson that my grandma wants to teach me!
My wife and bro in law trying to comfort me then they took me out for a dinner with friends no matter I said I didn’t in mood. Maybe they were right, it’s a good way to distract me, force me not to think too much about the regret on my grandma!
May you rest in peace and enjoy your time with grandpa in the heaven, my lovely grandma, you will always in our heart.