Spanish

En mis sueños más inquietos veo lo mal que te hice, veo que tanto te lastime, que no supe cuidarte ni valórate, que querías intentar algo lindo conmigo, me buscaste como nunca nadie lo había hecho, me aceptaste como nadie más lo hizo, curaste mis heridas que estaban en mi alma, incluso las que nunca viste y ni sabías, las curaste con tu amor siendo está una venda, tus caricias un medicamento y tus besos una vitamina para sanar, hiciste que tu voz fuera la melodía que tarareaba sin saber, no te mentire, yo también empecé a buscarte, sin saber el trasfondo de porque me buscabas o que fue lo que había pasado, sin saber que pasabas por un mal momento o si alguien más te buscaba, yo te busque por qué eras tú la mejor elección, sabía que el destino nos había juntado por una razón, para que fuéramos felices, soñando con un futuro juntos, tomando una taza de café en las mañanas, tomandote de la mano, teniendo momentos felices mientras te abrazaba sintiendo el latir de tu corazón haciéndose uno con el mío, acariciarte y besarte como si nunca hubiera un final y pensaba que lo estaba haciendo bien, creí que mis acciones a pesar de los tropiezos, nos estaban encaminando por un camino que nos llevaría a ese futuro que tanto anhelamos pero fue todo lo contrario, lo hice mal, rompí tu corazón, te hice llorar, cada lágrima que tu mejilla rozaba era una pecado que cometí y aunque dijeras que nunca fui una mala pareja y que nunca fui malo, yo sabía que solo lo decías solo para hacerme sentir mejor, perdí lo que más amaba y eso me carcome día tras día, eras mi rayo de luz en un pueblo inundado en niebla, pero por mis malas decisiones, y por escuchar voces que no tenía que escuchar, hicieron ahogar tu voz la cual es la más importante en mi vida, alejandote más y más de mi lado, perdiendo tu silueta en mi pueblo lleno de niebla.
Dije cosas que mi corazón no se perdona queriéndome detener, que nuestra historia de amor terminó de la peor manera posible y todo por mis errores y mi falta de experiencia, querías ser feliz sin palabras de por medio, querías una calma y calidez que veías en mi, pero que lamentablemente destruí sin querer, la calidez se volvió un invierno atroz, la calma en un huracán que arrasaba nuestra llama, y tú felicidad se volvió una tristeza que no pude curar siendo como una daga que apuñalaba tu alma al no hacer las cosas como se tenían que hacer y que terminó curando alguien más, y aunque me duela saber que estás con otra persona, tengo que aceptarlo, mi cabeza acepta esa idea de verte feliz aunque no sea conmigo, pero mi corazón y alma no se hace a la idea de ya no tenerte, se que me volví dependiente de tus abrazos, de tus hermosos ojos, de tus besos y de tu voz, de tu amor y se que no esta bien, pero es difícil no serlo después de que eso fue la cura de está alma rota a través de los años.
Me hundí en el alcohol, en los cigarros y en las drogas, solo para olvidar mi dolor, pero nunca fueron mis aliados, solo me dañaba y te hice que vieras, al igual que la gente que nos quiso separar, inyectando me de un veneno mortal y yo como cual serpiente rastrera inyecte en un tu corazón, marchitando la rosa de nuestro amor que rociabamos con puras risas y felicidad.
Cumplí un objetivo, del que te desenamoraras de mi con acciones que mi alma y corazón no se perdonan y es una decisión de la cual me arrepiento cada minuto, sabiendo que destruí algo que ambos buscábamos, no mentire, sigo buscando un rayo de luz en este lugar inundado en niebla y oscuridad que me den la oportunidad de volver a estar a tu lado, pero el miedo me deja de rodillas, tu silencio me destroza, tu ausencia, son criaturas que me siguen sin descanso recordando lo mal que hice y sin tu amor, mi corazón dónde cada latido dice tu nombre, se volvió una jaula de la cual solo cenizas de nuestro amor quedan, volando por el aire respirandolo, quemando mi ser haciendo que mi alma se rompa más y más, hasta volverse un montón de fragmentos imposibles de armar.

Me hiciste muy feliz.

Gracias por tomarse el tiempo de leer mi publicación.

English

In my most restless dreams I see how bad I did to you, I see how much I hurt you, that I didn't know how to take care of you or value you, that you wanted to try something nice with me, you looked for me like no one else had ever done, you accepted me like no one else did, you healed my wounds that were in my soul, even the ones you never saw and didn't even know about, you healed them with your love being a bandage, your caresses a medicine and your kisses a vitamin to heal, you made your voice the melody that I hummed without knowing, I won't lie to you, I also began to look for you, without knowing the background of why you were looking for me or what had happened, without knowing that you were going through a bad time or if someone else was looking for you, I looked for you because you were the best choice, I knew that destiny had brought us together for a reason, so that we could be happy, dreaming of a future together, having a cup of coffee in the mornings, holding your hand, having happy moments while I hugged you feeling the beat of your heart becoming one with it Mine, to caress you and kiss you as if there was never an end and I thought I was doing well, I believed that my actions despite the setbacks, were leading us down a path that would take us to that future we both long for but it was quite the opposite, I did wrong, I broke your heart, I made you cry, every tear that brushed your cheek was a sin I committed and even if you said I was never a bad partner and that I was never bad, I knew you only said it just to make me feel better, I lost what I loved the most and that eats away at me day after day, you were my ray of light in a town flooded in fog, but because of my bad decisions, and because of listening to voices that I shouldn't have listened to, they made me drown your voice which is the most important in my life, moving you further and further away from my side, losing your silhouette in my town full of fog. I said things that my heart does not forgive itself wanting to stop me, that our love story ended in the worst possible way and all because of my mistakes and my lack of experience, you wanted to be happy without words in between, you wanted a calm and warmth that you saw in me, but that unfortunately I destroyed without wanting to, the warmth became an atrocious winter, the calm in a hurricane that devastated our flame, and your happiness became a sadness that I could not cure being like a dagger that stabbed your soul by not doing things as they had to be done and that ended up curing someone else, and although it hurts me to know that you are with another person, I have to accept it, my head accepts that idea of ​​seeing you happy even if it is not with me, but my heart and soul cannot get used to the idea of ​​not having you anymore, I know that I became dependent on your hugs, your beautiful eyes, your kisses and your voice, your love and I know that it is not right, but it is difficult not to be after that was the cure of this broken soul through the years. I sank into alcohol, cigarettes and drugs, just to forget my pain, but they were never my allies, they only hurt me and I made you see, just like the people who wanted to separate us, injecting me with a deadly poison and I, like a creeping snake, injected into your heart, withering the rose of our love that we sprinkled with pure laughter and happiness. I accomplished a goal, that you would fall out of love with me with actions that my soul and heart do not forgive and it is a decision that I regret every minute, knowing that I destroyed something that we both sought, I will not lie, I keep looking for a ray of light in this place flooded in fog and darkness that gives me the opportunity to be by your side again, but fear leaves me on my knees, your silence destroys me, your absence, are creatures that follow me relentlessly remembering how bad I did and without your love, my heart where every beat says your name, became a cage of which only ashes of our love remain, flying through the air breathing it, burning my being making my soul break more and more, until it becomes a bunch of fragments impossible to put together.

In my most restless dreams I see how bad I did to you, I see how much I hurt you, that I didn't know how to take care of you or value you, that you wanted to try something nice with me, you looked for me like no one else had ever done, you accepted me like no one else did, you healed my wounds that were in my soul, even the ones you never saw and didn't even know about, you healed them with your love being a bandage, your caresses a medicine and your kisses a vitamin to heal, you made your voice the melody that I hummed without knowing, I won't lie to you, I also began to look for you, without knowing the background of why you were looking for me or what had happened, without knowing that you were going through a bad time or if someone else was looking for you, I looked for you because you were the best choice, I knew that destiny had brought us together for a reason, so that we could be happy, dreaming of a future together, having a cup of coffee in the mornings, holding your hand, having happy moments while I hugged you feeling the beat of your heart becoming one with it Mine, to caress you and kiss you as if there was never an end and I thought I was doing well, I believed that my actions despite the setbacks, were leading us down a path that would take us to that future we both long for but it was quite the opposite, I did wrong, I broke your heart, I made you cry, every tear that brushed your cheek was a sin I committed and even if you said I was never a bad partner and that I was never bad, I knew you only said it just to make me feel better, I lost what I loved the most and that eats away at me day after day, you were my ray of light in a town flooded in fog, but because of my bad decisions, and because of listening to voices that I shouldn't have listened to, they made me drown your voice which is the most important in my life, moving you further and further away from my side, losing your silhouette in my town full of fog. I said things that my heart does not forgive itself wanting to stop me, that our love story ended in the worst possible way and all because of my mistakes and my lack of experience, you wanted to be happy without words in between, you wanted a calm and warmth that you saw in me, but that unfortunately I destroyed without wanting to, the warmth became an atrocious winter, the calm in a hurricane that devastated our flame, and your happiness became a sadness that I could not cure being like a dagger that stabbed your soul by not doing things as they had to be done and that ended up curing someone else, and although it hurts me to know that you are with another person, I have to accept it, my head accepts that idea of ​​seeing you happy even if it is not with me, but my heart and soul cannot get used to the idea of ​​not having you anymore, I know that I became dependent on your hugs, your beautiful eyes, your kisses and your voice, your love and I know that it is not right, but it is difficult not to be after that was the cure of this broken soul through the years. I sank into alcohol, cigarettes and drugs, just to forget my pain, but they were never my allies, they only hurt me and I made you see, just like the people who wanted to separate us, injecting me with a deadly poison and I, like a creeping snake, injected into your heart, withering the rose of our love that we sprinkled with pure laughter and happiness. I accomplished a goal, that you would fall out of love with me with actions that my soul and heart do not forgive and it is a decision that I regret every minute, knowing that I destroyed something that we both sought, I will not lie, I keep looking for a ray of light in this place flooded in fog and darkness that gives me the opportunity to be by your side again, but fear leaves me on my knees, your silence destroys me, your absence, are creatures that follow me relentlessly remembering how bad I did and without your love, my heart where every beat says your name, became a cage of which only ashes of our love remain, flying through the air breathing it, burning my being making my soul break more and more, until it becomes a bunch of fragments impossible to put together.

You made me very happy.

Thank you for taking the time to read my post.