We can wait for the future to come but we cannot go back to the time from the past. There are things we wish to do or not to do. As well, things we wish not to make happen so soon. The memories we have with someone sometimes linger like it was just yesterday. Falsely, we thought we are alright but the truth is we are not. We only suppressed the pain not to keep haunting us from the fear of being left behind.
A story about the past but it stays even today. It’s like someone's soul that even passed away refused to leave the living. A ghost may be just a part of a supernatural phenomenon but who can tell if it’s true or not? Some said they experienced it through seeing it and feeling it. Which is why it’s not hard to believe. However, I think it’s because of the longing feeling to our loved ones that we desperately want them to stay forever.
I was in my 2nd year in college back then when my father said goodbye. I jumped off the bus wishing I could still see him before his last breath. I ran as fast as I could but I felt like I was running in the flood of my tears. My every step took too much time before I could make another one. The time was running so fast but my movement felt like it was in slow motion. I was desperate to reach home immediately but the god damn time teased me not to make it happen.
I kneeled. I coughed. I shouted. My head was too messy to understand what was going on. I refused to believe it. I refused to accept it. I was crying while thinking that everything would be alright because of my nonstop crying. I had a thought like when I was just child, when I cried hard the things I wanted would soon happen. I closed my eyes hoping when I opened them he would smile at me or welcome me from my return.
I was slowly opening my eyes. I let the tears cover my eyes because I wished he was the one who would wipe it for me. Anguishly, I never had the chance to say goodbye. No matter how I blinked my eyes, the situation was still the same.
Till now, I’m still wishing for a Father and Son to bid goodbyes. Even though I’m okay as the time passes and as I get older. It’s just not easy to forget the past especially when it’s about a time when our loved ones will never go back.
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ABOUT ME
Paul was born in Macrohon, Southern Leyte but currently living in Cahayag, San Francisco Southern Leyte. He graduated the course of a BS Mar-E or Bachelor of Science in Marine Engineering in 2019. Although writing is his passion so instead of sailing he decided on writing.
He writes occasionally about random stuff he would see in the outside world. He loves to express what he feels through writing because he's not good at speaking personally.
He also writes fictional stories and emotions because he thinks life matters. He is hoping that his words could reach someone who might be feeling down.
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