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Have you cried while looking at your toddler?
I did. They were tears from mixed emotions. Like why did time fly so quickly? Seems like I didn't enjoy the moments where I can still carry you and dance till you sleep!?
Just by looking at my daughter, I realized how fast time passes by.
I cried. I cried for the times that she wanted to play but I said no. I cried for the times that she wanted to go out but I said I can't. I cried for the times that I left her sleeping and coming home late that she's already asleep. It hurts my heart so deeply.
I should've played with her, took her to places, be there for her always, provide her that emotional support she needs...coz she won't be that little anymore. She won't be running to me and asks for help. She won't be crying and calling for her mum.
But what's good is that it's not yet too late. I can still do what I didn't do before.
I used to come home late since my past job is far from home wherein I wake up at 4 am and come home at 7 pm. That went on for almost 2 years and thanks God I found a Job that is closer to our house. I can come home earlier than before. Sometimes I get to be with her at school. I fix her hair, I print coloring sheets for her, I help her with her assignments, I tuck her to bed. I cook meals for her (sometimes), I try to balance it all. Her, and her little sister. I am a much better mum than before...(I think)
I just pray that as she grows, she can feel my love for her.
my two beautiful daughters
Thank you for reading my sentiments.
May you enjoy your time with your kids...
