Many people have one thing they find difficult to do. In my case, I find it difficult to express my emotions. Showing my emotions is something that is rare. People have said to me that the sun would probably turn green before I properly show my emotions. In this context, when I say emotions, I mean sadness, or even crying.
For instance, when someone I know loses their loved one, I usually don't know how to appropriately console and sympathize with that person. It's not that I don't feel sorry for the person. That's not it. I do feel sorry and understand the pain that person is going through because of such loss, but somehow, showing emotions in that situation is just something I find difficult doing.
Just to be clear, it's not that I don't feel these emotions. I just don't show it. There have been so many instances where I have been required to show emotions but to no avail. One time, a friend of mine broke up with her long-time boyfriend because she found out he was cheating. This was someone she hoped to get married to, since they'd dated for so long. She was so sad the day she found out. She cried her eyes out. I felt terrible, and sorry for her. I could relate with her though. After spending that amount of time, effort and emotion with someone, everything just went down the drain. Anyone would be disheartened if they were in her shoes.
I knew for a fact that she loved him. She made a lot of sacrifices for him. Now, seeing her that sad, crying in front of me, just broke my heart. I felt empathy for her. Despite everything I felt, I didn't know how best to console her. I didn't know how to let her know that I was as sad as she was because of what happened. I wanted to, and believe me, I tried my best. I can't say that the little attempt I made to show my emotions was good enough.
To make up for it, I was always there for her. Making sure, and letting her know that she had all the support she needed. She was a very good friend of mine, and I couldn't stand by and watch her go through that emotionally trying time alone.
Personally, when bad or sad things happen to me, I barely cry. Of course, crying is some people's way of expressing and dealing with what they are feeling or going through. Some people might say most guys don't usually cry, unlike ladies. I still believe my case is unusual. I really can't remember the last time I cried. That may have been when I was a little child.
Some people have called me a robot, but I have been working on myself, hoping to express my emotions better. Perhaps they are right. Maybe I'm a human who is a robot.
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