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Un saludo cordial comunidad de Hive. 🌌🌠
For many this day will have been one of romance and celebration. Many had plans with their partners or with someone special. In my case, this day was one of sadness and bad moods. Without exaggeration, it was the worst February 14th of my life.
Para muchos este día habrá sido de romanticismo y de celebración. Muchos tuvieron planes junto a sus parejas o junto a alguien especial. En mi caso, este día fue de tristeza y de mal humor. Sin exagerar, fue el peor 14 de febrero de mi vida.
What I wanted most was for that day to be over as quickly as possible. It made me feel so miserable to go on Instagram and see all the happy couples. Seeing how they were dedicating words of love, songs, gifts, etc. to each other. On that day specifically, I didn't need people bragging to me about their "semi-perfect" relationships.
The reason for this is that I recently had to move away from a girl that I love and appreciate madly. Someone who marked me, who made me grow and made me mature as a man. I had to walk away almost obligatorily. I really had no choice and it was the best thing to do, even if it hurts.
I missed her so much that I couldn't stand the impulse and spoke to her. I told her that I would have loved it if we had met with the mentality we have now, because the outcome of our relationship would have been totally different. Since at the beginning we were both somewhat immature and didn't know much about each other. She does not respond to me and tells me that she is dating someone else a month and a half ago.
Obviously, this shattered and ruined me. My self-esteem right now is the smallest thing in the world, above an atom. To know that the girl you love and cherish with all your heart, is with someone else, is something very painful and very sad.
This day made me consider how much of a failure my love life is. I never had the opportunity to celebrate a February 14 with someone. The saddest thing is that although it seems strange, I never had the opportunity to be in a relationship. For different reasons, my own mistakes, other people's mistakes, lack of interest, bad luck, etc. It makes me sick to be a 26 year old who never had the opportunity to experience love at its best.
I am a very complicated person in love. It takes me a long time and a lot of effort to connect to that point with someone. Many people are "lucky" enough to be able to open and close their heart with ease, I am the opposite.
Maybe I'm not good for love and maybe I haven't learned enough to be able to love. I really don't know. At this moment I doubt everything and I am not sure of anything. I don't know what I should do anymore. Whether to abandon all possibility of love and become a disgusting womanizer who only thinks about sex or assume that I'm going to be alone all my life.
I guess I'm speaking out of sadness and anguish, but honestly, I feel really bad emotionally. I feel mega miserable and mega pathetic. I want to throw myself off a sixth floor.
Supongo que estoy hablando desde la tristeza y la angustia, pero honestamente, me siento muy mal anímicamente. Me siento alguien mega miserable y mega patético. Quiero tirarme de un sexto piso.
Sorry for the overdramatization. I'm really having a hard time and it helps me to let off some steam. I hope you guys aren't as stupid as I am.
Perdón por el exceso de dramatismo. Realmente, la estoy pasando mal y me ayuda un poco desahogarme. Espero que ustedes no sean tan estúpidos como yo.
Thank you very much for reading my blog. It is a pleasure to share with you. I look forward to posting in this community in the future. I send you all a big hug and hope you are having a good day.👽🤙
Muchas gracias por leer mi blog. Es un placer compartir con ustedes. Espero poder publicar en esta comunidad en un futuro. Les mando un fuerte abrazo a todos y espero que estén teniendo un buen día.. 👽🤙
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Thank you very much for reading my blog. It is a pleasure to share with you. I look forward to posting in this community in the future. I send you all a big hug and hope you are having a good day.👽🤙
Muchas gracias por leer mi blog. Es un placer compartir con ustedes. Espero poder publicar en esta comunidad en un futuro. Les mando un fuerte abrazo a todos y espero que estén teniendo un buen día.. 👽🤙
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