There is one feeling I pray I would never experience in my life, a feeling I once craved when I was little having no or less knowledge about how painful and enduring it could be if I was allowed to choose between physical pain and this feeling now I will go for a physical pain. Nothing is more dangerous than something we can not see or control.
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Sometimes all I need is just a warm touch of you once again, to feel and touch you once again and bring back the memories we once had together, no feeling can ever break that at this moment but you clearly stated all you wanted was for us to have our difference in a different mind and a different life.
All I want is to love and be loved i know this is not too much to ask but can this equation work out when one person has lost full interest in the feeling and is just here thinking about how life would be if I had gotten this person to have me how my life will have won partial having someone i truly love besides me.
I remember every moment we had like it was yesterday, nothing moves me away all I want is just for you to be happy and smile always, it feels like I will miss you forever like the stars are always in the sky every night, I hate this feeling, I truly hate this feeling I wish I was full focused and I never took anyone too serious I wish I had been more focused on myself. Now all I feel is to have you in my life like it is a kind of big Trophy win, Sometimes I pray to God to protect you and be your shield.
All I want is to love the same woman again and again and be covered under her shadow of your cardigan, to love is a big award in life but I don't think I will ever want to experience this feeling again. There are things I want to say to you but I will just keep it to myself and say nothing. Sometimes when my mind thinks about this feeling all I remember to do and all I can do is play Travis Scott to clear my mind from this feeling and feel good and alright.
Today while I was playing random songs my mind felt a touch to this particular song sung by Taylor Swift and I felt a connection in this song that I thought of the same feelings over and over again, saying to myself looking at the mirror I hate this feeling dn I don't ever wish to experience this or pray my enemies to experience this feeling because it makes me lose control that I don't even know sometimes if I am doing the right thing or I am doing the wrong thing, I want to escape from this reality and be saved from this feelings, the feeling pipe me down to dreaming and depression, I need to be saved.