Sometimes, life may seem hash because of the challenges thrown at us. We feel we can't take it anymore, we feel overwhelmed, frustrated and tired. It seem nothing is working which is true. We just stay there living life as It comes without any zeal.
Towards June last year, my mum got sick, little by little, it got worse that I became so scared. I was scared for so many things. The thought of loosing her hunt me even in my dreams. But I was helpless. The only thing that I could do was to send money. Whenever I hear her voice, it breaks my heart. She became a shadow of herself. I don't know if everyone has this bond with their parents the bond I share with my mum is so strong. I just kept praying and kept my faith that I won't loose her.
All these while, I felt helpless. Not being there with her made me feel useless. It was a very difficult time for me because I couldn't think straight or perform my duties accurately. I just wanted to see her and be with her. I felt no one could care for her like I would so, I rushed to finish all that was required of me before traveling home to be with her as she prepare for surgery.
I thought not being with her was the most difficult part of it until I got to the hospital and saw her. I was shattered. After the surgery, I had to help her with the easiest things. She became a baby that we had to do everything for. Bathing feeding, absolutely everything. It was difficult but we kept going.
There were times it seems God was not listening to my prayers. There were times I felt alone in my distress, there were times I had no one to talk to, but we pulled through.
She started recovering and getting better by the day. I then began to see the answers to my prayers. Her recovery was so fast that she started doing things herself. Indeed there is light at the end of the tunnel.
The next challenge that came after her recovery was the settling the loans I took for part of her treatment. This was also though. I ran Helter skelter just to pay back because I don't want to be embarrassed. Help wasn't coming, I just put my trust in God and at the end of the day, I was able to pay back my debt, put my pieces together, and get back on track.
These all taught me to keep fighting, never to lose faith and focus, to trust in God alone and then, I also realized that it's one man for himself that is a story for another day. I don't have a power of my own I trust only God to take the wheel.
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This is my response to Hive learners community weekly featured contents on the topic: Embracing the difficulties.
Yours truly @aunty-tosin💕💕