I live naked and barefooted, very close to Earth and Nature, in an 18-acre, off-grid, clothing-optional, food-forest intentional community (GaiaYoga Gardens), way out in the jungles of Lower Puna, far East Big Island, Hawai'i, and I have for more than 5 years now. Although there are many challenges, I love my life, and I'm immensely grateful to live where and how I do, on my own terms! I would not want to live any other way! 😁🙏💚⚡💥🔥✴️✳️❇️👣🌱✨🤙
Warm greetings all! 😁🙏💚✨🤙
I used to work with natural entheogens (mushrooms and ganja/marijuana mostly, with others occasionally, as opposed to anything artificial) quite regularly, as I found many of my most potent experiences of realization and healing were with them, especially mushrooms. Over the past year and a half, during my long broken-hearted dark night of the soul, I took a hiatus from working with them for the most part, with only very rare exceptions. Since I created my 2024 Life Goals back in December, with healing my broken heart at the top of the list, I've felt called to work with them once again.
The shift that I experienced recently, where my broken fragments reintegrated, and my heart sun reignited, was in part catalyzed by working with a synergy of multiple entheogens during Harmony's second session (they make me even more sensisitive to energy). It was nothing in large doses, with which I'm actually more accustomed, by rather small amounts of a handful of them, a little Psilopsybe mushroom, bobinsana, ganja/marijuana, and even some ayahuasca blend. That was a potent, yet gentle, combo, that helped me heal and reintegrate more.
Given my alchemical proclivities, always experimenting and tinkering with various and diverse synergistic combinations, I felt called yesterday to work with a mix of my entheogenic plant and mushroom allies yesterday. Before that came into my mind to do, however, I finished everything up on Hive for the afternoon, I strained out kefir for my kefir-honey-cinnamon-cacao blend, and I sunbathed on the trampoline in the Peanut Lawn for a while, along with getting a couple important phone calls at least partly done. That's when I had the intuition to take some time for myself, to return to the Flow House, and to enlist the assistance of a few of my entheogenic helpers. I had small amounts of the ayahuasca blend (all plants from the land), mushrooms, ganja/marijuana, and tobacco that I had grown myself, so those were the ones with which I chose to work. Mind you, I've worked with entheogens, especially mushrooms, at very high doses, for many years now, so I'm quite accustomed to more-intense experiences, and I can hold a lot in my awareness. This journey was not one like that, however, but rather a more-gentle and less-intense dive into myself.
After I had ingested the various natural entheogenic components, and I slowly began to feel their energies beginning to move and flow in my body, as is often the case, I felt the desire to move, stretch, and articulate my body, which I began to do. In my post yesterday I had mentioned that the last time I had shared sexuality with a woman was also around the same time that I had stopped dancing, just before my birthday in the summer of 2022. Well, I had the inspiration to put on Skakira's Ojos Así, a song that always impeled me to move and dance, and that's exactly what I did. I played it on loop for almost an hour, surrendering to the movements that wanted to express through my body. It felt incredible. As I danced, I continued to stretch, articulate, and move my body in a way that got my energy flowing and integrating quite well indeed.
I had two significant realizations from this entheogen-inspired self-healing dance yesterday. One was the dancing is important to me, that it's very good for me, and that I should do it regularly. The second epiphany was receiving clarity around why working with natural entheogens has always been so profoundly beneficial, helpful, and healing for me. I've said for a while now that I wish I could find a woman that was able and willing to do the same kind of deep, integral energy-body-tantric healing work sessions on me that I give to women. The realization was that working with natural entheogens allows me to get outside of my own mind sufficiently so that I am able to work on and heal myself, just like how I work with women. That's huge, and it also suggests that working with natural entheogens should be a punctuated regular practice for me once again.
Even though I did devote a good chunk of the day yesterday to myself, I also wanted to get some work on the land done too, so after I was sweaty and energized from dancing, I went to do some laundry (session sheets and pillow cases) and to clean and do some maintenance on some of the water-collection gutters around the shop, the car port, and Stefano's lab. I also cut a section of gutter to replace a damaged part, though I didn't do the repair yesterday, I more just got the materials together and ready (I didn't have a ladder that was tall enough). Our water-collection gutters are an inefficient abomination, and they very much need to be completely replaced and upgraded, which I will suggest in the next Leadership Council meeting. That same thing needs to be done with various aspects of the infrastructure here at GaiaYoga Gardens, one area at a time.
After finishing laundry and work, I made myself some inspired food (egg, pink Himalayan sea salt, white onions, tomatoes, and diced younger coconut meat, sautéed in olive oil), and after eating a little up at the Flow House, I felt the desire for a nice, hot shower, so I wandered down from my lava perch once more, to head to the bathhouse. The shower felt glorious, and was exactly what I was wanting. After my somewhat-extended shower, I returned to the Flow House to finally dive into my evening round of Hive tasks and catching up on notifications. Since I had done a good bit of catching up in the afternoon, I was way ahead, and as such I was able to finish up on Hive just after 9:30PM, which was brilliant. After a round of token management, and scanning my feed on X, I went to bed somewhere around 11PM, and I did very thankfully sleep well, waking up around 6:30AM, doing a round of token management, then beginning on this post.
I was scheduled to give Souzi a session yesterday, but I realized in the morning that it wouldn't be happening because we had set the time for her session before the Immersion classes started, so they weren't taken into account, since she was going to be attending them. All good, it allowed me a healing day for myself, which was very needed.
It's close to 9AM now, so a great time to end this post, so that I can get to a few important Hive tasks, before leaving the Flow House as soon as I'm done, to go make my superfood fire coffee, help milk Daisy the cow, strain out kefir for my yummy kefir blend, and then land work. The sun was so gorgeous in the early evening yesterday, that I not only took photos for this post, and tomorrow's post, but also some for the post after that too, which is pretty excellent. I deeply appreciate you all so very much! Until (hopefully) my Hive Goals and Progress Update tonight, and the next iteration of this post tomorrow! Forward, onward, and upward, joyfully together! 😁 🙏 💚 ✨ 🤙
2024 Life Goals
1.) Heal my broken heart and embody a solid, healthy masculine.
2.) Bring myself and my life back into balance, integration, and wholeness.
3.) Do regular integral practices again.
4.) Make my plant nursery beautiful again.
5.) Prepare regular batches of my medicinal teas collected from the land again.
6.) Begin learning relevant coding/programming languages to more fully contribute to the sovereignty-driven technologies where I am active, like Arch Linux, Hive, Qortal, DeSo, and Bastyon.
7.) Get regular deep, integral energy-body-tantric work healing sessions with women flowing again.
8.) Live as an integral part of a juicy heart-resonant soul tribe community, with deep, coherent, mutual and shared passion, purpose, mission, love, warmth, care, sweetness, reverence, respect, aliveness, admiration, excitement, joy, playfulness, work, attraction, all-level connections, and relationships.
9.) Make love with the women that I love every day.
All photos were taken with my Motorola G Power Android Phone.
Thank you all so much who have helped me get to where I am today, and allowing me to share more of the beauty and magic from my life and my world with you, and for your continuous appreciation and support! I am truly deeply grateful! 😁🙏💚✨🤙
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