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Hello, my fellow Hivers it's me again @chimegipamus, and here is my life story. Hoping you will support my blog.
There are days in our life that we cannot control. I've been on a roller coaster this past few weeks because of unpredicted happenings. I was here ten or fifteen years ago struggling with emotional tiredness.
Right there I learned to move on and always see to it not to focus on negative things but on the positive. I could not say I'm not true to my feelings but I learned only how to control them.
This past two weeks I have felt alone and lonely. Whenever I am left alone in the house, many things keep coming back to me in the past. I can't do anything in the house because I feel tired. I know I am having anxiety so I try to fight for it.
For the past weeks, there has been something that happened in my family. Struggled with money for my brother, and struggled with addiction to my husband's family. I could barely believe that it affected us so much emotionally.
It could wake us up two in the morning and we could not sleep again for the entire day. My husband is struggling also with stress in school, resulting in early signs of depression. He cannot handle the students in the right mind sometimes because of stress.
Feeling tired
When I am alone I want to cry inside our bedroom but I can't. I listened to music and podcasts on the bible to renew my mind. I always got irritated by small things and sometimes just got angry for no reason.
Inside my room
I am disturbed by the many thoughts of worries that had never happened. I keep praying and asking God to give me grace and a renewed mind. But it keeps on coming and torturing me. I am emotionally tired already.
My devotion
The things that keep my sanity are my fur babies. Whenever I came out of my room they were the ones who were very happy and excited to be with me. I felt loved and special in their reactions. They licked and wanted to be in my arms.
There love is true
My chim
I came to realize that life is beautiful even in the midst of a troubled heart. That someone is waiting and excited about your presence. That life must go on because not every day is a doomsday, there is always hope and light in the midst of a darkened world of anxiety.
So today I cried to God and poured everything on him. He alone is the answer to all our questions. Yes, we know that there is God but sometimes we are blinded by the emotions that we feel because we did not cast our cares to Him. The enemy wanted all of us to feel this way but chose not to remain weak but to get up and move on.
with the right people
I am not alone in this battle, and every one of us can go through this kind of emotional struggle. Go out and be with the right people, Don't stay that way, buckle up, move forward, and face it for life's adventure is about to begin daily. Keep the faith and believe that tomorrow you will be a better version of yourself.
Thank you for taking the time to read the blog. Happy Sunday everyone.