I woke up this morning feeling so down, thinking of how my life is currently going, how everyone seem to get all their acts together and how am moving to my next phase of late twenties in a few weeks and it get more overwhelming because each and everyone i come across as a lady commuting with a guy am not married to yet, seem to have an opinion on the kind of choice i choose both in a good and in a bad way respectively; forgetting they might be a reason and a clause making me to be in that kind of situation currently. So i was thinking what if i made a bad decision, what if my current situation is not an excuse, what if it actually enough reasons to be there, do i blame my myself or my families for this problems somehow.
Just somewhere along the line it brought me to my topic why we women feel the pressure of choosing financial stability in our acquitances over emotional stability and i begin to flash back on my life and it drawn on me what if i made the wrong decision my drastically choosing Mr.A over Mr.B, reality starts hitting and i started analyzing.
Mr.A obviously have more financial stability, as a paying source, a car and a apartment but he is not quite responsible,does not have a plan for a future,he is a cheat and a liar,he has a lot situationships in addition doesn’t seem like what i would be bold enough to take home to my parents, safe to say he doesn’t really have a purpose he is just well to do for his age but on the bright side Mr.A is always ready and willing to help me up when am down financially, he pays my rent, provisions and toiletries, he takes me out on dates, make me meet people in short he is a giver what we Yoruba calls “Afun ni ma wo be” meaning a giver that doesn’t look unto why.
Mr.B on the under hand also have a job but isn’t financially buoyant yet,does not have an apartment or a car yet safe to say he his still hustling but on a brighter side of being quite responsible, have a sense of responsibility,a listener who works hard to understand and see a point from everyones direction, very cheerful and a well known person. In addition he has plans working hand in hand with a promising future.
Moving forward after constrasting and comparing if there is a context on choosing, i feel if are to be realistic we will all agree that if am to safeguard myself financially i have to choose Mr.A cause he has those qualities but however Mr.B is very much realiable and will give much ease cause we are building together.
However,i compared few of my friends who had gone for someone like Mr.A which they’re still very much together and enjoying financial freedoms but all having there ups and downs because of what they settle for,after much analyzing i decided to go on with Mr.B which means i am securing my future right; at least i feel i am but the struggles became so real that the basics are taking a lot to acquire and it feels like am beneath all of my plans which is a reason for my deep thought.
What if i has gone for Mr.A and I regret it later?
What if i am with Mr.B and everything didn’t still get better?
What if i am with Mr.A and i don’t later regret it?
What if i am with Mr.B and things eventually became better?.