Well, this is a first.
Today my boss called my shades "dad glasses."
I'm twice her age, so I suppose it makes sense, but I certainly don't feel old enough to be the butt of dad jokes.
Maybe if I had kids the jab would sting a little less.
I always thought my sunglasses were pretty modest and vanilla, but now I'm all self-conscious about them.
Nobody's ever made a dad joke at my expense before.
Maybe it's time for me to have a midlife crisis and buy a Harley?
Bollocks.
Yesterday I had a beer on my lunch break, today I had two.
Don't tell my boss.
I was talking to my psychologist the other day about how much the sounds of civilization annoy me.
E.g., sirens, construction, screaming children, loud music, barking dogs.
(Sidenote: Only domesticated canines bark regularly - wild canines rarely bark.)
Sometimes it feels overwhelming.
Sometimes I have panic attacks.
I had a neighbor once who decided to put a subwoofer against the wall directly across from my apartment.
I nearly lost my mind.
We also talked about my social anxiety and how difficult it is for me to convince myself to get involved with communities, even when I know that doing so will be beneficial, both for me and for the people I interact with.
Low self-esteem and high anxiety - not a great partnership, I guess.
Which is why I feel so much more calm and confident when I'm alone in the middle of nowhere.
I've been trapped in electric storms way above treeline.
I've been stalked by mountain lions in the night.
I've seen avalanches release, I've heard rockfall crashing down at me in steep gullies.
Hypothermia.
Heat exhaustion.
Trench foot so bad I could barely walk.
Pain so intense I was on the verge of vomiting and blacking out.
Nature is an indomitable force - but I am part of nature, so there is nothing that it can throw at me to cause me fear.
It can of course kill me, but it cannot frighten me.
Accepting an invite to a house party - that's scary.
Walking into a bar to get a drink - super scary.
Asking out a pretty girl who's obviously interested…
So fucking scary.
I've been having some of the wildest lucid dreams recently.
Everything from group sex scenarios to murdering friends for no reason to getting engaged to marry my own fucking brother.
I don't know where any of this is coming from.
My mind is the devil's workshop.
It's been interesting tracking my steps with Actifit.
My job requires me to walk long distances throughout the day, so it's easy for me to rack up some decent stats.
I recently invested in some AFIT and AFITX tokens, and will probably try to accumulate more as the days go by.
I play a few other Hive games on my other accounts - the main ones being dCity, Rising Star, and Splinterlands - but I'd like to look into some new ones on this account.
Any suggestions?
Finally back on my meds, thank all the gods.
@chaoticthoughts out.
Today’s stats:
- pushups: 50
- crunches: 50
- steps: TBD
- beers: TBD
- AFIT balance: 65,937.1502
- AFITX balance: 23