Istg I'm not trying to evade responsibility, gaslight, nor find excuses for my childhood and youth past. You guys might not believe me when I say this, but this is a spiritual warefare, not typical scandalous rumors anymore. The way these people know what I'm thinking, say aloud what I've just thought, is not normal dramas. This is a spiritual warefare, and there are dark forces out there targeting me and those acquiantances of mine.
Most of you will not believe me now when I tell you this, and no I'm no prophet, but simply my observation for years of what's going in my fucked life.
I miss the days when I thought, believed that I was a normal, autistic young person living in society. Now, I realized how abnormal I am in a bad or good way, either ways I'm not a normal person. From the day I was born to now, my real name (I can't share online) is cursed, like a haunting song that never phases out. My appearance stands out a lot in the crowd and everyone seems to recognize me despite no news about me where my face was ever featured on it normal I known for any merits nor talents.
Those who are rumored to be associated with me or my "lover" are also deemed by society as seriously wrong, or so they fear, but not as bad as I.
If anyone has a open-mind and thinks over the box, they will know that normal scandals and dramas, you don't know what the alleged person or people are thinking. However, in this situation, people know what I'm thinking. Many times now, they would be saying shit I'm thinking about when I'm out around others, like a normal person should. Random shit because I've secretly got mania and perverted sexual thoughts, thoughts that are not there's. Another shit I'm sick of hearing from my "case manager" NO, this is not psychosis. This is reality. And no, these people knowing what I'm thinking and say exactly what I'm thinking is not the result of "anxiety" or "trauma.
At first, for the first few years of my life, I assumed the reason people were obsessed with me is because they worry for their safety. Hearing I'm some sort of psychopath, they are worried about their children, families, friends, and others in the community. However, there's also no way they would recognize me on the streets accurately and point at me. My face was never on the news nor in any magazines, just in your everyday gossips. The fact that they all recognize me and even repeat what I was thinking in my head proves something else.
This is probably some sort of spiritual warefare, and please don't think I'm trying to play games or evade explanation, I've been called that before when I explain to my "ex-friend" what might be going on around me. I've observed and experimented many times out in public, so many times now strangers would be saying exactly what I'm thinking, every word accurately. This is probably some dark force out there seeking me or something.