The warmth on my face from the sunlight on the drive home felt different. In fact, today wasn't very cold at all.
I could be convincing myself of this thanks to the knowledge of the astronomical event today, the vernal equinox. Yet, I don't think so. I convinced myself not to mention something yesterday in my blog post.
The 63 degrees forecasted for today and a flood warning from the National Weather Service affirmed that I wasn't just talking big. Change, spring, whatever fortuitous portent you can imagine, is in the air today.
And yet, I still piece together the words of this blog post like a guy writing an apology or love letter. I linger over each word, languid from early morning workouts and something else I can't explain.
I am procrastinating. I don't want to collect the money from my little community just to get listed on an exchange, because deep down, I'm worried we're going to get scammed. And I don't have it in me to be responsible for anyone else's money, let alone mine. Plus, I just don't think getting on more platforms for buying and selling is going to pitch this community to anyone- it's something, sure.
I just don't think it's the right use of our time. In fact, if even 10 people took the time to write a blog post about why our community is different, then it really would be different- 10 people would've spoken about their perspectives. The word-of-mouth effect alone would count for something.
Instead, I put off posting on X or Twitter, because I just do not know what to say. We're mentioned, our picture referenced, but it's not driving holder growth or retention. I want to remain creative about this, not collect money I might lose putting my faith in others when so many have put their trust in me.
Once I get to complaints, the text springs to attention like a hot chick walked by. It spills out like a guy nervous to speak to her, the muse, inspiration, known by many names, but hardly understood. Yet it's true. I, among many, am waiting for change and hopelessly praying it's in the air. I know it's within me- all my damned desires, lust for life, energy for play, creativity with words, discipline in action. I could list as many thing as makes me sound cool, but the real merit comes from checking things off the list, one by one, then day by day.
I'll come up with something. I always do.