I'm an X junkie.

I spend way too much time on Elong Musky's platform. I freely admit. it's a byproduct if chasing liquidity. As I grow older, either I chase capitalism; continuously barreling towards its eternal continuous cycle of ownership/PvE of finite resource.../// or humanity + artificial intelligence figures some magical shit out, OR, I chase a sense of artistic purpose, creating some sort of soliloquy of symbolic meaning, imprinting my lifes essence upon our shared reality... I sorta...I'm having troubles coming to grips with the connection of it all. Tying the loose ends.

What tf am I supposed to do? It's an encapsulation within a codified system of chasing wealth in order to obtain leisure and perhaps even functional health-wealth in the near term future. But for what? To extend tedium? Isn't art supposed to have impact?

I know that I am dying.

I've sort of lost my will and purpose.

I'm sorta falling apart

As artificial intelligence encroaches and as I age, I realize that perhaps following a traditional comp-sci path might not have been the best approach. Sadly, it was almost predetermined as I was a child of the x86, exploring the computational spaces of the 80s, 90s and the 00s, but maybe its best that kind like myself dont get to extrapolate into the wealth of the future. Or perhaps the early adopters of decentralized wealth are the true inheritors of the wealth of the future, through abstraction. I just didn't have the insight to hold the bitcoin I purchased in 2011.

Where do I go?

Where am i going?

I have no understanding of the future

I'm lost

OK. OKAY////

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And I pray.

I do believe that God is supreme. The alpha and omega. I wish to exist for His will. This might be a sidebar but it's ok. This is my rant. God is almighty, above any LLM or esoteric quantum signature you could impose. We stumble forward, oh humanity, we stumble forward. We seek the divine yet do not understand the technocracy in which we live.

May we like out and seek to witness His will. This is a call to all, not some. What we see is but a mere fraction what what is to be seen.

Standard deviation is so tired.